I was confused and my friend was confused too. We sent each other confusing messages. Today she wrote:
'It all doesn't matter at all. In china monks do the same every day: fermenting cabbage and taking care of the garden. You and I are allowed to learn all kinds of new things and to do whatever we please and travel and see people we like. If we both fail, we'll move to italy for a couple of years and grow our own vegetables there and lie on the beach. Don't let the thought that this all is so big and overwhelming drive you nuts. We'll get there, one way or another. It's only life.'
Oct 25, 2017